Thursday, October 17, 2013

Terukir dlam Laut

Man o man o man.....

It's been ages since i've post any updates or blog. Miss the old days. Yeah it is coming to end. No more blogging for fun. Then era of blog dawn has come, but i love blog. My heart fall that time but i done with her. I have enough time fooling around with you and now i'm no longer going to try to fall for you. Courtesy from Barney Stinson. Malu kowt ajak tgk movie then krik krik. x krik krik pon ad hal katenye. Malu gue. Then after that incident krik krik sgt. Dah r dlm library, krik power of 2, then i x phm ratio dlm accounting. Die krik akoo krik krik. enough of krik krik for now. Gotta let the feeling go. x bagus n x beretika. gitew ko. Mengarot ka? Ad org bc enggak? to my readers, do drop by comment if ok. Saje ja mahu tgk siapa yg bc lg. Mate gue udah terok. leyh jd Cyclops mcm x-men. Drive malam x nmpk jalan. Tgk movie dlm laptop wassalamu sakit mata tros tidoq. Bercelaru blog gue. Sok i organized k.

Tuesday, June 18, 2013

i think i lovestoned

found this article from a random site.. am i lovestoned again??


Lelaki sememangnya sukar diramal. Tidak semua gerak gerinya dapat di baca. Namun, satu pekara yang sememangnya mereka tidak boleh sorokkan iaitu 10 tanda bila si dia mula angau dengan mu. Jom ketahui bagaimana rahsianya mula terbongkar.

1)      MULA BERI BERIBU PERHATIAN
Jika sikapnya yang dahulu acuh tak acuh sudah tidak kelihatan, dan si dia mula memberimu beribu perhatian itu tandanya si dia mula mengambil berat tentang mu.

2)      INGAT SEGALA PEKARA TENTANG MU
Wah nampaknya si dia memang serius dengan setiap perbualan kamu. Segala tentang kamu walaupun sekecil semut sekalipun si dia masih ingat dan tidak lupa, itu bermakna si dia memang peka dengan apa sahaja yang sedang dibualkan oleh kamu berdua.

3)      TIDAK AKAN MENYUSAHKAN KAMU
Si dia akan cuba sedaya upaya untuk tidak menyusahkan kamu. Jadi jika kamu dalam kesusahan jangan panik, si dia pasti akan menolongmu.

4)      TIDAK MUDAH MENABUR JANJI
Lelaki yang benar-benar mencintai kamu tidak akan sewenang-wenangnya menabur janji pada kamu. Ini kerana, mereka takut untuk memungkiri janji dan melukakan hati kamu

5)      MENCINTAI SEGALA KELEMAHAN MU
Bila si lelaki mula mencintai setiap kelemahan kamu itu bermakna si dia betul-betul menerima kelebihan dan kelemahan kamu. Inilah masanya untuk kamu berterima kasih padanya kerana si dia sanggup menerima segala kelemahanmu. 

6)      BERI LAYANAN ISTIMEWA
Lelaki ni selalunya, bila dia menganggap seseorang itu hanya sebagai kawan dia akan bersikap 'natural' sahaja. tetapi, bila dia dah mula meletakkan kamu di kedudukan yang istimewa, tentunya kamu akan di layan dengan sehabis baik!

7)      KAMU LAH SATU-SATUNYA DI FIKIRANNYA
Jejaka yang benar-benar mencintai kamu tidak akan sesekali cuba mendekati wanita lain. Si dia akan mula berkelakuan seperti kamu sahaja wanita yang ada dalam fikirannya. Besar kemungkinan takut-takut kamu pula yang akan rasa seperti dikong-kong dan rimas.

8)      SENTIASA MENCURI MASA UNTUK BERJUMPA
Ada sahaja alasannya untuk berjumpa dengan mu. Bila si dia mula cuba mencuri masa untuk bersama kamu itu bermakna si dia benar-benar mahu menghabiskan waktu hanya bersama kamu.

9)      SUKAR MEMBERI ALASAN MENGAPA DIA MENCINTAIMU
Bila si jejaka sukar untuk menerangkan mengapa dia mencintaimu itu bermakna si dia benar-benar sudah jatuh hati dengan mu! 

10)   BERSEDIA UNTUK BERJUMPA DENGAN ORANG TUA MU
Bukan mudah untuk si dia berani berhadapan dengan orang tua mu. Jika si dia mula menunjukan respon dan gerak geri yang positif ketika ingin berjumpa dengan keluarga mu itu bermakna si dia sudah bersedia untuk ke peringkat seterusnya.

Sunday, June 16, 2013

wave of misses

i have tons of works to do now. but i just have to post this song as it is what i feel now.
Tuhan tolong lembutkan hati dia
Untuk terima ku seadanya
Kerna ku tak sanggup
Kerna ku tak mampu
Hidup tanpa dia di sisiku

Tuhan aku tahu banyak dosaku
Hanya ingat Kamu kala dukaku
Namun hanya Kamu yang mampu membuka
Pintu hatinya ‘tuk cintaku

Malam kau bawalah rinduku
Untuk dirinya yang jauh dariku
Agar dia tidak kesepian
Selalu rasa ada cinta agung

Hujan bawa air mataku
Yang mengalir membasuh lukaku
Agar dia tahu ku tersiksa
Tanpa cinta dia di hatiku

Hanya mampu berserah
Moga cahaya tiba nanti

Tuhan tolong lembutkan hati dia
Untuk terimaku seadanya
Kerna ku tak sanggup
Kerna ku tak mampu
Hidup tanpa dia di sisiku

metaphor

a metaphor is a tool used by writers to visualize the sentences or the things that they want to express. either a sea of fire or dragon. this week, i stumble on a road, and when i rise i see a junction. a path to continue my happiness another to a beginning of a undefined happiness. i stunted for a moment.which path should i choose. the happiness or the undefined? i ask people around. which one should i choose? one say think very thoroughly. you have a home now and you're headed to one now. do you really want to risk that house for an undefined house? you now are tend to the undefined because you always think of it rather than the happiness you have felt. you have a home, and you have to close your heart to another land. then i ask another walker, he answered know your limit. if you can confine yourself then it is ok. if you know you will fond of undefined place if you visit it, then it would not be a good plan.  i realize something today. when you are in a predicament, never be alone, instead talk to your friend, ask the Al-mighty Allah for Allah guide. when no one else to turn to, there are always Allah and your family. N by family, it doesn't restrict to your bloodline. a friend who r close could be your family. the thing is, i already promise the undefined land for a visit. maybe i ask a friend to tag along so it would not be superly awkward. how relieved i felt after sharing with my friend. yesterday a friend told me a casual answer. it do helpful, if i want to start the other path. but today a friend has clear my mind, to actually think wisely. do the right thing rather than do thing right. for that i forever thank Mir Mir. and that wrap up for this blog. a metaphor a disguise use to express the hollow in heart eventually it is just been away for a while, and i believe it will come back to it place



Many nights we pray
With no proof anyone could hear
And our hearts a hopeful song
We barely understand

Now we are not afraid
Although we know there? s much to fear
We were moving mountains long
Before we know we could

Oh yes, there can be miracles
When you believe
Though hope is frail
It's hard to kill

Who knows what miracle
You can achieve
When you believe
Somehow you will
You will when you believe

In this time of fear
When prayer so often proves in vain
Hope seems like the summer birds
Too swiftly flown away

And now I am standing here
My heart's so full, I can? t explain
Seeking faith and speaking words
I never thought I'd say

There can be miracles
When you believe
Though hope is frail
It's hard to kill

Who knows what miracles
You can achieve
When you believe
Somehow you will
You will when you believe

They don't always happen when you ask
And it's easy to give in to your fear, ohh
But when you? re blinded by your pain
Can't see your way safe through the rain
Thought of a still resilient voice
Says love is very near

There can be miracles
When you believe
Though hope is frail
It's hard to kill

Who knows what miracles
You can achieve
When you believe
Somehow you will, how you will
You will when you believe

You will when you believe

anecdote

I'm in a bad situation at the bad tyme. i dun want love bug at the end of semester. it surely affect my exam. i talk to a friend of mine. He do realise I'm attract to her as I always talk about her. talking about the day she ask whether it is fat or muscle on my chest? my sexual orientation? quite funny. i'm blogging again with my heart guide the keyboard typing. but it not ethically rite. i hate love bug. i text her , but was left out on the final text. Am i the only one who feel? Should i know what her feelings?  i'm in a mess, mess than before. yesterday, i couldn't take my eyes from the phone. A friend told me, it is because you are waiting for the wrong person to text you. gosh how pathetic, i feel myself now. i couldn't bear another bug, it is depressing and despair. to think again, it is all started when a friend, a good friend of mine, left me out into isolation for no reason. a man with a buttocks plan in his mind. I dunno, n all the fingers are point to me, to resolve his confusion. just clear it out for a bit. last two days, i dreamt of her. She, who i should not have dreamt. is it because i think of her so badly? what if i'm the only one who feel? such a pathetic person i feel now. n here i am babbling on the blog and hoping for the moon to land on my lap. i have a hole inside. a hole which use to be a wonderful and loving place. a hole that enable me to blog with my heart. i feel like a loss of my self being. i'm so sad rite now. bestfriend position for hire anyone? the position is open.

Saturday, June 15, 2013

Pabila hati jatuh lg?

Astagfirullah.
my heart drop again, for a person that thinks i'm fooling around. i have say it, i like you, let us couple.
but then again, it will make me become the one that i despise. maybe i was in the heat of battle with my heart. i just want to scream n shout of it. to burst it out. to think it again it is the same with the Sally case. oh my people, how i'm into her. i add her in the facebook. which i do not do. dear my fellow readers do help me in the predicament! how to not fall for a person again.....

Wednesday, March 20, 2013

Depression of a Fat Mukris

for a person who is big and fat like me, always and I repeat always imagine to lose weight and hunk up. And those who used to lose weight and being back to be big and fat. And that even depressed than the first. That is my dilemma. Not to brag the past, but back on those days I could complete 100 push ups and 100 sit up under 11 minutes. But not now, it take couple of minutes to complete it. Do you want to know how this happen??? It's simple overconfident, arrogant and lost track of who you are.

I tot that past body is eternal, well Al- Mighty Allah sure prove me wrong. It takes a lot of effort, sweat, muscles and not to forget prayers as well. Seriously, now I dun even love to take pictures of me. It's not that I'm not thankful but I have not confident with this state. My waist line reached 42!!! My tummy fat getting bigger. well let's hope none will come after this.

But hey new resolution now, lose weight now, get into shape by jogs and push ups. Hopefully I managed to achieve it, before the end of this semester. omg!! I really hope this wasn't just a false mission of me. In Shaa Allah

Wednesday, February 27, 2013

Assalamualaikum

Assalamualaikum, Greetings, Selamat Sejahtera, Good day. The words that people to greet each. To be used upon meeting anywhere everywhere anytime, well maybe in bed it is another matter. Words that wishes ur sender good condition. You may not wish someone Good Condition my friend. But each and every greeting phrase to hope you are in good health. Greetings may be differ when you are with ur buddy. It may start with ' hey, jawa' 'hey fatty'.  We being a stereotype but that doesn't mean we are. It is just we're so close we don't mind the stereotypical. OMG!!! what the Hell am i talking about nothin actually.

I'm so miss the excitement of journalism of my life.. omg!!! gonna do it more u noe... draft it first b4 post it. therefore i got more things to blog on.

love you all...
p/s hope you're with me