lovebug no more

hey yeah, i don't know what to express to this blog.Gone to s.p. weeks later. Really makes me think of home.And experience a shock of an old feeling....I don't know whether should i express it.Okay this may not as long as others coz i don't prepare it properly.well ok then.......da past 3 blogs, i express on da gurl i love, well now use to love. How? should i continue it?ok i've been depressed for da early of jan 2008. the open relation suddenly no more between us.i didn't meant to talk bout it, but just wanna express it.mayb bout my card. i make cards for her,by that time i noe how to use creativity to make cards.yeah i over-express it....really mission just to tell that i love her,not to make us lover.then on march there was a holiday.so i watched a hindustan movie. Kal HoNa ho. Maybe tomorrow? In the script the actor said, the more we chase for love,the further it go...huh? so , i take the script as my guidance, i try to loosen it a little. try to forget sumone u use to love is lyke remembering sumone u don't even noe.but still i try to contact her time by time. but we're not as close as b4. its make me felt uncomfortable.short answer. no continuation.borink.sometimes i even thought i maybe a nuisance to her..after a long tyme, i received a message from her. apologizing for her wrongdoings.....well i forgive her.. there's no other things to do than forgiving ,when sumone ask for apology.yeah ok we're sms-ing for while.then nothing occurs..it's lyke da same moment of no her around.still i don't blame her. why should i blame her?da Man should make the first step.. is it right? or not?well n.e.way i've learn so much from her . how to stay relax in front of gurl n others.should i post da blog????does it make any better between us. really .missing da moment when we're close. stay contact .oftenly.nayh, i not going to say 'i love u' again to her.it ain't rite....i do love her just for a friend never as lover.well i think that's all huh????just depend on Allah on what happen next.thx for spending time to read my blog..